 I Have Never Enjoyed For Sex Since Marriage: Please Help Me
I NEVER enjoyed sex. Its been 1 year and eight months since 'm married. May be it's my mistake i can count me and my hubby had sex, only 25 or 30 times in life. My vagina is too tight and i don't get wet either since m married. I remember only two or three times i had light orgasm in my life during sex. I used to get wet a lot and turned on before marriage while talking on phone with my hubby. I have no feelings now and i can't turn on resulting almost no lubrication. Every time my husband tries to enter i tightened myself that i couldn't control and feel unbearable pain. Now I've a baby and it's been 8 months i didn't let my hubby have sex with me as when we tried, it hurts more than delivering a baby. i feel total numbness of legs. I don't know it's because i don't have sex frequently or it's just fear or pain. I'm having troubled relationship cuz of that. I blame my hubby too cuz he doesn't touch me the way i want and he cant turn me on. We have orgasm when he rubs on me or when he performs oral sex. I asked him many a times to watch erotic movie as my gynecologist suggested us, may that would help. But i hate porn. I envy those couples in movies who enjoy sex, i cries a lot and prayed that i would start enjoying sex and make my hubby happy, but i failed....
all day hes busy in his work on computer, watching news channel, talking on phone with his friends.. M busy all day with my demanding baby who sleeps at 4 midnight.. after that he came to me asked sex.. that ticked me of and we have major fights, he called me bad names and beat me. my husband started watching other sexy woman at internet and masturbate secretly. we had many fights about that. i fear for my future relationship... Please help me. |