mera important sawaal

Dr sahab mai 1 unmarried or 20 year k b0y ho please mera sawal ka jawaab jald or zaroor dejye ga Mai ne aj se 4 sal phele apne d0st k sath sex relation rakha tha wo mujy aksar fuck krta tha aur aahista aahista mujy ye acha lagne laga phir mai ne s0cha ye ghalat hy or mai ne uske sath relation khatm kardia mera dil krta tha k mai uske sath sex kro lekin mai ne khud k0 r0ka and phir mai jab bathroom jata to finger ya didlo suck krta ho lekin 4 sal se sex nai kia mera dil larkio ko fuck krne ka bhi chata hy aur normal men ki trha larkia pasand hy lekin jab bhi mai kisi naked b0y ko dkhta ho to i cant c0ntrol my self or mai bathroom ja kr finger se sukoon hasil kr leta ho lekin mai ye chorna chata ho mai kia kro jab b bathr00m mai stool pass krne k bad wash krne k lia waha hath lagata ho pata nai kia ho jata hy or finger andar le leta ho boht dafa finger andar bahar krte krte pressure se meri sperm bhi nikal jati hy Kia mai normal boy ki trha ho skta ho? Kia is sab se meri aanay wali married life mai k0i pr0blem aye gi ? PLEASE ANSWER ME