I Feel Guilt Over My Past: I Cant Forget It
Salam to All ! sab sae phele to mae Noorclinic ka thanks karonga kae unhone itni achi guide line website banai... mere problem yeah hai kae .. mae saudia arab mae rehta hoon . I m bachelor . mere family pakistan mae hai . mae jab yahan naya naya aya tha to mae camp mae tha . and yahan saudia arab mae camp ka mahool bhot ziada ganda hai .. yahan mere peche ek phillipini boy lag gaya tha .. aur mae yahan bhot ziada upset bhi tha .. bcz yahan aakar mae bhot akela hogaya tha .. na koi baat karne wala .. etc ... u can sae that kae mae thora sa cyco hogaya tha .. baas mjh sae ek ghalti hoi kae woh phillipini mere room mae aya aur mae nae aus kae saaat sex kardya .. but allah janta hai kae mae apne hosh mae nahin tha .. i hate it ... i m not gay ... khair mae hospital mae job karta hoon ... kuch arse baad mjhe ek indian nurse nae friend ship ki offer kari jo mae nae accept karli ... aur phir mae aus ko apne room mae laya .. mae nae insert nahi kiya ... but just foreplay kiya . woh pure undress hogai thi .. baas just lower part aus nae show nahi kiya .. hum nae kafi din tak enjoyment ki .. but i didn't insert ... baas phir last year mera HAJJ par janae kaa program ban gaya .. mae nae aus larki sae sorry kari aur ausae boldiya kae i don't love her ... mae nae HAJJ karliya Al-humdullillah . aur mashallah bhot Umrah kiya ... mjh jase gunah gar bandae ko bhi Allah talah nae Mjhe apne Ghar ki Siyadat ata farmai ... aur mae ... mjhe apne past par bhot afsos hota hai .. mae jab bhi Haram sharif jata hoon to roo roo kar mafi mangta hoon ... aap log batain mae kiya karoo .... mae bass mentally bhot upset hogaya hoon ... mere Engagment hogai hai ... aur next year mere shadi hai .. mere Fiancee bhot Educated aur Respected family sae hai ... mae bhi hoon ... but mae nae bhot ghalat kya .... kindly good advise me ..... i know kae mae nae gunah-e-qabira kiya hai ... mae Dozak mae jaonga ... But Allah Rahim hai ... woh maaf karne wala hai ....
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